For Rent (again)

 So our previous place is for rent.  They stayed there a year.  They couldn’t wait a year to find a house. They raised the rent $600 a month.   Good luck to future tenants.   This girl is moving to IL next May.

One year again

 Today marks one year since my BIL died.  He had a massive heart attack.  He was a good guy.  He suffered from depression but did not let it stop him from living his life. Since I was moving, I had to use my emergency fund to pay for the move and therefore couldn’t travel to MN for the funeral.  No forgiveness.  Ever.  

One year

 Today marks one year since my world was set on fire.  I got the call from DM that his family would be moving into the apartment we were living in.  No warning.  No indication.  No forgiveness.  The last year has been very difficult.  We survived.  We are better than DM.

Manifesting and does it work?

 2023, not bad so far.  I must have faith and trust God.

Things I want to do:

Move to IL in 2024

Buy a house.

Buy a car.

Get a trust set up for my daughter

Get new will.

Transfer retirement funds 

Try to forget about the people who have wronged me.

History Repeats

Well 2022 has been a shit show in a dumpster fire.  First, January and February, March were spent in physical therapy for my shoulder.  All better now.  Then March 16 my landlord Douchelord Mc Fuckstick called to inform me that he would be sacrificing my family for his and moving into the apartment we had been in for 3 and a half years. He is dead to me and karma will take care of the likes of him.  I wash my hands.  The very next day my sister called to tell me her husband had died.  We spent the next 60 days in flight or fight.  Eventually we found a place just a couple miles from where we were. The cost of moving kept me from being able to stand next to my sister when she buried her husband.  No forgiveness, Douchelord McFuckstick . July had the only bright spot as Elizabeth was awarded the Grand Cross of Color from the International Order of Rainbow for Girls. So happy for her.  August brought a car accident, not my fault but didn’t have a vehicle for 58 days.  During that 58 days, Jeff fainted on the train and was in the hospital overnight.  We did have a rental paid for by insurance for 30 days and for another 2 weeks, paid for by the mechanic.  Bright spot in an otherwise sea of darkness and despair.  Of course we were in between rentals when Jeff fainted.  Uber to the rescue.  Jeff and Elizabeth had great fun at Philly Zinefest in November.  Looking forward to the holidays and getting the hell out of here and returning to civilization in Illinois.  Bye for now.  A.

Time Flies

 While looking for another blog I discovered this old blog of mine.  It’s been a minute.  14 years.  So much has happened.  We were unceremoniously kicked out of our home later in 2007 and I completely forgot about writing.  The next 5 years were a mixed bag of navigating E.’s speech and language issues and Jeff leaving Busey( the dog kicking factory) and taking a series of jobs through Manpower and then enrolling in graduate school in 2012.  Moved to Normal, IL and navigated junior high and high school.  Also, panic attacks and poverty. Jeff was ABD in 2018 and he accepted a job at Temple University in Philadelphia.  He graduated in 2019 and is now Dr. Jeff.  We did this all while sorting through all the feelings of being let down by family and all the angst of grad school.  It’s been a whirlwind, yet was like a heater in hell.  Still haven’t forgiven, not sure I can.  It’s was a betrayal of trust and now I just can’t trust fully.  I bear no ill will.  I just can’t trust. Don’t get me wrong, nice people who mean well but I can’t forget what was said and how we were treated.  It’s a boulevard of broken dreams.🥸. 

Hey it's been a while since my last post. I'm not all that prolific. My husband has a great blog about "games and stuff". My blog seems to be taking the shape of indiscriminate ramblings tailored just so. Just this month we here in Urbana IL have been on the receiving end of 17 inches of snow. I should have known we were going to have a blizzard when my husband announced that he was agreeing to a Walt Disney World trip in 2009. I can't believe it. My unofficial hobby for the last seven years has been planning our return trip to WDW. I have purchased countless guidebooks and watched many Disney specials on TV channels such as the Travel channel and Bravo. I also frequent chat boards dedicated to talking about Disney. If you are in to Disney you should check them out at Passporterboards.com. We will probably use AAA to book our trip as they offer a pretty good discount. In my estimation as long as we stay at a reasonably priced hotel (on site of course) the biggest expense will be the airfare. I will post more in the future, maybe.(as I said, I'm not that prolific) For now I'm concentrating on our trip to Northern Wisconsin in July 2007. We will be attending the Ferguson Family Reunion at Lakewoods Resort in Cable Wisconsin. More to come on that if the spirit moves me. Peace out.


Amy