Time Flies

 While looking for another blog I discovered this old blog of mine.  It’s been a minute.  14 years.  So much has happened.  We were unceremoniously kicked out of our home later in 2007 and I completely forgot about writing.  The next 5 years were a mixed bag of navigating E.’s speech and language issues and Jeff leaving Busey( the dog kicking factory) and taking a series of jobs through Manpower and then enrolling in graduate school in 2012.  Moved to Normal, IL and navigated junior high and high school.  Also, panic attacks and poverty. Jeff was ABD in 2018 and he accepted a job at Temple University in Philadelphia.  He graduated in 2019 and is now Dr. Jeff.  We did this all while sorting through all the feelings of being let down by family and all the angst of grad school.  It’s been a whirlwind, yet was like a heater in hell.  Still haven’t forgiven, not sure I can.  It’s was a betrayal of trust and now I just can’t trust fully.  I bear no ill will.  I just can’t trust. Don’t get me wrong, nice people who mean well but I can’t forget what was said and how we were treated.  It’s a boulevard of broken dreams.🥸.